I Hate This..

Nervous thinking,
Taking breaths,
Pacing bedroom,
Need some rest,
I'm stuck in,
Your wandering out,
I dont ask for much,
Just give me a shout,
Are things ok?
Lemme know, are they alright?
Hearing reassuring words,
I still worry despite,
Breathing heavy,
Heart beating faster,
Try to prepare for,
The inevitable disaster,
I've never felt so sick,
During the calm before the storm,
Wondering what pointless tricks,
The clouds will perform,
Shadows running towards me,
I'm losing sight of the sun,
The rain is coming down,
The sadness has begun,
Theres a long journey ahead,
Filled with wrong turns and dead ends,
Am i willing to make the trip?
I think I'll just make my amends.

Friday Dec. 17th 2010

Most Perfect Day Of My Life,
Woke Up Early, Got Sierra's Car Washed At Work, Bought Her A Very Soft Steering Wheel Cover,
Cashed My Paycheck And Got My Favorite Sub From Subway, BMT (Delicious)
Straightened Up My Room,
Showered,
Played COD(Did Straight Work) Till Sierra Got Outta School @ 11 (Half Days Thanks Too Exams)
She Came Over, Things Got Very Intimate.. Twice,
Cuddled Till We Found Something To Do,
Went To Her New House To Continue Painting The Rooms,
Fished In The Canal In Her Backyard, Used My Pro Skills To Catch A Fish,
Went To Walmart To Get Cookies,
After A Very Indecisive Debate Over What To Eat, Got Walmart Meals,
Got Back To My House, Ate Then Cuddled To Eclipse(Good Movie)
Continued To Cuddle, Then Turned On Tv, Tosh.0 Was On (Best Show Ever)
Then Walked Her To Her Car And Kissed Her Goodbye Like I Do Every Night,
Ate Cookies Till I Couldn't Move,
Now Going To Have The Most Comfortable Sleep Ever.
Night ♥SM♥

Reminiscing

You Know FIF, We Ain't Afraid Of Nothing,
When The Kia Rolls Up You Know Your In For Somethin',
Pop Out The Sun Roof With The 4 5th Blazin',
Girls Coming Over, Got The Neighbor Bitch Glazin',
Only AOTP Blastin' From The Stereo,
On The Way To Walmart, You Know Where We Go,
Reckless Speeding, Shit! Was That A 5-0?
Pushin That Pedal To The Fuckin Flo,
Lights Off! Quick Pass Toledo Blade,
Mtn Dew Sippin', Fuckin' Favorite Flav,
Get Back, Fuckin House Is A Mess,
Damn Kids Aint Like The Rest,
Mom Yelling, Tryna Make Us Depressed,
EJ Bitching Hes "Gotta Pain In His Chest",
Break Out The Models Start Gluein Some Shit,
Walk To The Gayrage, Listen To The Engine Spit,
Weldin, Grindin, Getting The Torch,
Maybe Pump Some Iron On The Back Porch,
Pulling All Nighters, Thats What We Do,
Drop The Kids Off And Get The Girlfriends Too,
Gas Lights On, Tanks Always On E,
But We Find Ways To Get The Money,
Working Hard For Nothing, But We Live For The Family,
That's Me, Joe, Sara, And Mikey B.

Things Aren't What They Seem To Be

Standing Looking in The Mirror,
Knowing There's Nothing I Can do,
Feeling Helpless & Alone,
All This Change Is For You,
Bottomless Pit Is My Stomach,
Vomiting Emptiness And Shaking,
Dry Heaves Breaking The Silence,
You Were My Wife In The Making,
Endless Happiness & Constant Smiles,
This Is A Race & Ive Been running For Miles,
You Leave Me Breathless But Not Exhausted,
I Just Wanna Sit And Talk For Awhile,
But There Is A Change In Pace,
Meet me At My Place,
And We'll Discuss This,
While I Undo The Fine Lace,
Master Of The Craft,
And I Know Your Weakness,
I Got A Sweet Tooth For It,
And I Call You My Sweetness,
Just One Day With You,
Made All This Worth It,
Think About Everything You'll Lose,
If You Just Quit,
I Never Give Up,
But I Know When To Let Go,
If You Do This, Your Feet,
Is Where My Heart Will Be Below.